Today was/is better then yesterday. So much better, thankfully. I got some extra sleep last night and that seems to have helped. I also realized I hadn’t taken my pills for a couple of days. So that could have added to the “crash”. I took them last night and will make sure I’m getting them everyday.
I’ve finally figured out that it’s the lima beans that didn’t come up. So I’m going to go and get another package of seeds and try again, since there’s still time. I think we planted them to deep and that’s why they didn’t come up. But considering this is our first attempt at a garden I’m not too upset and just looking forward to seeing if I can get the next set of lima beans to come up.
I am going to go to the gym tonight. Need to get more exercise. I’m looking forward to the weights and trying to get some cardio, either the bikes or treadmill. Trying to get over my nerves. Easy to say hard to do. But I want the exercise. Hopefully James will get off work on time and we can get to the gym and no one be there. In case I didn’t mention it before, I’m slightly agoraphobic. That’s why I don’t generally go out alone and being around people I don’t know is hard. I’m trying to get better about it just takes time. It’s all about baby steps.
Tomorrow is my first weigh in. I’m a little nervous. I’ve done really well watching what I eat and not eating too much, and getting in exercise way more then I was before. I feel like I’m on the right track. I just want a number to reflect my work. Which I guess it will. If it’s not a good number then I’m doing something wrong. Although any loss is good. I’m just all over the place right now. I keep trying to remind myself it’s going to be a long process with good weeks and bad. I just want a good first week to kick this off.
I finally remembered to put on sun screen today. Thankfully. I burn so easy I really should be better about it. I’ve just got 31 yrs. of bad habits to work on and fix. No ones perfect and I don’t want to be. I just want to be better. ~T~
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